Truth‑Telling Tuesday: When the Story Doesn’t Add Up

“If your life feels like a puzzle other people are secretly rearranging, you’re not crazy - and you’re not alone. God sees what doesn’t make sense yet.”

When the Story Doesn’t Add Up

Today I need to be honest about something: there are pieces of my story right now that simply do not make sense.
When I look at the overlap between my family, my best friend, my roommate, and my neighborhood, the patterns feel too precise to be random.

The last real conversation I had with my best friend on 01/11 is an example.
He mentioned pictures of cocaine on the table at my house - something my sister allegedly told him about. He remembered it because I had once called him and said my roommate was getting cocaine and that I didn’t want to be around it, so I went to stay at his place.

Here’s the thing: how would my sister even know about that unless she was somehow connected to the person I live with?
When you’ve lived with addiction before, stability is already a fragile thing. When you feel targeted, it can start to look like people are deliberately shaking every foundation you are trying to rebuild.

“For they devise injustice, saying, ‘We have devised a perfect scheme!’ The human heart and mind are cunning.”
Psalm 64:6 (NRSV)

Questions That Make Me Wonder

There are questions I keep circling in my mind:

• How would my sister know details about what happens inside my house?
• Why is everyone in my neighborhood suddenly in the process of moving -including the man I live with?
• How did my best friend know “exactly where I live” if he’s never actually been by my house?

One of the biggest red flags for me goes all the way back to 10/01 - the night of the biggest synchronicity of my life.
I left work on 10/01 at 10:10 PM and my odometer read 101,101. Earlier that evening, at 8:12 PM, my neighbor called to tell me the dogs were roaming the neighborhood. Not my dogs - my roommate’s dogs.

At the time, I just filed it away as strange.
Now, when I look at it in the context of everything else - neighbors moving, comments from my best friend, information my family shouldn’t logically have - it feels less like coincidence and more like coordination.

“For my enemies speak against me;
those who lie in wait for my life take counsel together.”
Psalm 71:10 (NKJV)

I don’t have every answer. But I can’t pretend not to see the pattern anymore.

When Concern Isn’t Really Concern

The last time I spoke with my best friend, he wasn’t asking if I was safe emotionally or spiritually.
He was asking how my phone was still on, how I was paying my bills, and how my car payment was being made.

This is the same friend who owned the company I worked at for over three years.
The same job I ultimately resigned from on 12/05 because my safety concerns were dismissed and minimized.

When people are more concerned about the logistics of your survival than the condition of your soul, it reveals something.
It says, “Your functionality matters more than your well‑being.” It says, “As long as you keep producing, we’re fine. If you start asking questions, we’re threatened.”

“Better is a little with righteousness
than vast revenues without justice.”
Proverbs 16:8 (NKJV)

I had to choose my safety and my sanity over my paycheck and my history.
That choice cost me a job, a community, and a picture of my future I truly loved -but it did not cost me my calling.

A Life That Has Been Taken, Again and Again

When I zoom out over the last 41 years, I see a pattern that’s bigger than this one moment.
I’ve watched multiple businesses and opportunities slip out of my hands:

• A large franchise that was taken away.
• A business selling and installing above‑ and underground storm shelters.
• A job I loved for 3+ years that I had to walk away from for safety reasons.
• My personal brand, EugeniasThoughts, being messed with in ways that still sting.

Each time, it feels like just when something starts to thrive, something - or someone - steps in.
And I’m not talking about normal life setbacks. I’m talking about things that feel orchestrated, layered, and strangely interconnected across family, friends, and community.

Yet even here, I hold onto this promise:

“‘All who devour you shall be devoured;
all your adversaries, every one of them, shall go into captivity.
Those who plunder you shall be plundered,
and all who prey upon you I will make a prey.’”
Jeremiah 30:16 (NKJV)

I’m not asking for revenge. I’m asking for truth.
I’m asking for what has been stolen - opportunities, safety, clarity - to be brought into the light.

My Presence Is Priceless, and So Is Yours

One thing I’ve finally started to accept is this: my presence is priceless.
Whatever I give my time and energy to tends to thrive, not because I’m special, but because of the way God wired my spirit and my gifts.

For years, I didn’t see that clearly.
I thought I was just “helping,” just being loyal, just doing what any good friend or employee would do. Now I see that, in some cases, people were happy to benefit from my gifts while quietly working against my stability.

I believe my connection to God has been under attack since I was a kid.
I had too pure of a heart to recognize it for what it was. But even now, I refuse to let that awareness harden me.

“Keep your heart with all diligence,
for out of it spring the issues of life.”
Proverbs 4:23 (NKJV)

I don’t hold hate in my heart for anyone who has come against me.
I genuinely want the best for them. But I also reserve the right to step away and rebuild without them.

What I Still Believe About Love

There’s one more truth I need to name: I can read energy like it’s my job.
You don’t have to say a word; I can feel what’s really happening underneath.

And I will go to my grave believing this - there is one person whose presence felt like pure, unconditional, divine love.
The most beautiful soul my eyes and spirit have ever had the privilege of being around.

Whether or not our lives ever intertwine again, I am grateful to have experienced that kind of purity.
It reminded me that I’m not crazy for desiring love that mirrors back what I give: honest, loyal, spiritually awake.

I don’t need a perfect ending.
I just want to live my life in the “land of the free,” making choices that align with my spirit, not someone else’s agenda. I’ve never been in trouble with the law. I’ve never been to jail. My recent hospital bloodwork came back clean, thankfully.

I’m not asking for too much. I’m asking for room to live my life with integrity - and for the truth about what has been happening around me.

“Behold, You desire truth in the inward parts,
And in the hidden part You will make me to know wisdom.”
Psalm 51:6 (NKJV)

An Invitation to Those Involved

If any of our connections were real - family, friend, neighbor, co‑worker - then I’m asking for this:
Be honest.

If you were pulled into something you didn’t fully understand, say so.
If you made choices you now regret, say so.
If you still believe our connection is real and worth saving, then meet me at the table of truth.

I am not the same naive person I once was, but I am still merciful.
We can work things out in a civil, honoring way - but only if truth is the foundation.

“As far as it depends on you, live peaceably with all.”
Romans 12:18 (ESV)

I’ve been in much worse positions in life than I am in right now.
I will rebuild - again. And this time, it will not be with anyone who cannot stand in the light with me.

Truth‑Telling Tuesday Prayer

Jesus,
You see every conversation, every screenshot, every whispered plan, and every misguided soul.
You know where my family, my friends, and my community have intersected in ways that don’t make sense to me yet.
I’m asking You for truth - nothing more, nothing less.
Expose what needs to be exposed, not to destroy people, but to set everyone free from the lies we’ve agreed with.
Guard my heart from hatred and paranoia, but sharpen my discernment so I no longer ignore the patterns You are showing me.
Give courage to anyone who needs to step forward and tell the truth.
And as I rebuild, surround me with people who are capable of real love, real honesty, and real partnership in You.
In Your name I pray, amen.

“You are allowed to ask hard questions. You are allowed to want the truth. And you are allowed to rebuild your life with only those who can stand in the light with you.”

With truth, courage, and grace,
Eugene 💘

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“You’re Still the One” by Shania Twain feels like the perfect backdrop for this Truth‑Telling Tuesday. In a season where so many connections feel scripted, conditional, or quietly coordinated against me, this song reminds me that real love - human and divine - outlasts rumors, distance, and misunderstanding. It echoes the hope that despite everything that has been plotted, the relationships and callings that are truly written by God will still be standing when the dust settles, and that the ones meant to walk beside us will choose truth and longevity over fear and manipulation.

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